Well, I got my Contracts midterm back.
The highest score was a 35. The average score was a 19.
I got a 16.
I had to drive back to campus to get my score after my grandparents left. When I arrived, I ran into one of my classmates. We did the casual heys and she asked what I was heading back in for. I told her I was going to get my Contracts score and she immediately told me that she thought she had done well, until she saw her score. This made me nervous, but still, I thought I would get at least average…
So I rode the elevator up to the fifth floor, pacing the entire way (It’s a surprisingly long elevator ride, especially when it’s practically a death march). When I got to the fifth floor, I walked into the office suite and approached the receptionist. “Do I get my Contracts score from you?” — “Yes, I just need your exam number.” — “#” As she pulled mine out of the pile, she grabbed a highlighter to circle my score and record it in her chart. I saw it as she lowered the highlighter point and let out an involuntary “oh.” I could have cried right then and there, but instead I decided to sit down on the couch and see what comments were written. On the cover sheet, she had written: “Basic understanding. Need to develop analysis. Let’s Discuss.” Inside, she had used highlighter to draw big question marks over whole paragraphs. I looked at it for about one minute and stood up and handed my papers back to the receptionist, thanking her before hurrying out the door. I didn’t cry, and still haven’t, but I did go sit in a bathroom stall staring dejectedly at the door waiting to cry. I’m just glad it’s only midterms. I still have a chance to pick up my grades. And you can bet money that I’ll be visiting her and finding out exactly what I did wrong.
On a lighter note, I also got back my memo for writing. I got an 88, which I’m not thrilled about, but it was the highest score of the 7 of us who gathered to discuss outside the office where we picked those up.
Tags: 1L, anxiety, class, law school, law student, Me, midterms, stress, studying, whining